Trusting Even When You Can’t See

I have an irrational fear of lakes. Lake water is generally murky and don’t like not being able to see what I’m jumping into. I’m not afraid of jumping. I’ll jump off the highest diving boards into the deepest pools as long as the water is clear with absolutely no hesitation. But jumping into water […]

You Aren’t Enough

“You are enough.” I see this everywhere and as a mom, it really just irks me. I know that’s the opposite of the intended effect. It’s supposed to encourage me, but—and maybe this is just me—it makes me feel so condescended to and very very frustrated. I live with me, oh valiant mom influencers with […]

“The Flame Shall Not Hurt Thee…”

I am frustrated today. No, you know what? Frustrated is an understatement. I am overwhelmed and pissed off. 2020 was a fantastic year for the Waters family, but 2021 is turning out to be hectic and exhausting. Between homeschooling two similarly aged girls (or, homeschooling one well and absolutely failing the other one), trying to […]

And if not… He is still good

I know there was no rational reason to think I was actually pregnant. With some extenuating medical circumstance, the chances of us getting naturally pregnant are 1 out of 1,000. But I felt pregnant for several weeks. I kept praying and begging God that we had a miracle. I cried and prayed every single day. […]

Crushing Fear, Worry, and Anxiety: Part 2 (sort of)

I woke up on the wrong side of the bed. No, I wasn’t exactly grumpy. I was anxious. There’s a lot happening this month and we went to bed talking about finances. I fell asleep thinking about how to help people who are grieving, feeling like I’m not enough, and panicking about income. My night […]

No thanks, I’m already full!

A while back, as I scrolled through Instagram, I saw a post from one of those “hustlers.” You know who I’m talking about. The people who always boast about how they’re hustling, how they’re entrepreneurs, how they’ve got like five different forms of income and they’re always the busiest people they know. The post said […]

Bye-bye, 2020!

So 2020… What a bizarre time! Whether your personal pandemic plight has been rife with sorrow or has been relatively easy, we’ve all felt the heaviness of a year of full of economic turmoil, political angst, and illness in one shape or another. I remember that last New Year’s Eve, as I sat with my […]

Image Bearers, Disease Carriers: An Angry Rant

WARNING: This is one of those posts that’s going to lose me followers, get me in trouble, incur more dislike from friends and family, and you know what? I’m okay with that. I think. I have a lot of thoughts and this is my blog, so I’m venting them a little bit. This is definitely […]

Thanksgiving: 2020 Edition

It’s Thanksgiving! I have thoughts and they’re going to be a little frazzled because I’m sporting a fever (not Covid-19, don’t worry! It’s ye olde November cold, just hitting me hard this year). 2020 has been a truly wild ride. From the Covid-19 panic to election stress to racial tensions to economic hardship, I think […]

Oh Come, Emmanuel

This morning, the morning of the 2020 Presidential Election of the United States, I have been listening to Christmas music. Yes, it’s November. No, I don’t care. I need the remembrance of Advent. “Oh come, Thou king of nations, bringAn end to all our sufferingBid every pain and sorrow ceaseAnd reign now as our Prince […]