And if not… He is still good

I know there was no rational reason to think I was actually pregnant. With some extenuating medical circumstance, the chances of us getting naturally pregnant are 1 out of 1,000. But I felt pregnant for several weeks. I kept praying and begging God that we had a miracle. I cried and prayed every single day. […]

Of Pregnancy and God’s Rebuke

I now understand why Rebekah cried out to the Lord during pregnancy and essentially asked, “What is happening to me?” Of course, I’m not carrying twins that are striving against each other. But I feel as if there’s definitely a little war going on inside of me. Maybe it’s more of a spiritual battle, though. […]

I’m not Fat. I’m Just Pregnant.

This post is going to get a little personal, so please hang with me as I flesh out my thoughts. I’ve always been fairly disordered in my eating. Not that I have an eating disorder, but I struggle with my body image and food in general. I remember in high school it became a sort […]

Life’s What You Make It

“I want adventure in the great wide Somewhere! I want it more than I can tell. And for once, it might be grand to have someone understand… I want so much more than they’ve got planned.” As I little girl, I would sing Belle’s reprise from Beauty and the Beast at the top of my […]

The Letter My Baby

Dear Baby, Hello, down there! It’s me, Mommy. You only have very small ears, so you can’t hear me very well, but I sing to you every day and pray with you too. I’m told that this week you’re about the size of a blueberry. That doesn’t give me much of a reference point as […]